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 it was a packed day today..

 had lunch with family at The Star: Garden Buffet... funny bunch and i love them. had a lot of laughs, a lot of photos and a lot of parental embraces as they realise my days in Sydney are drawing to an end..

watermelons at Garden Buffet.. these are watermelons right? 'Shawn Tan'

ate too much... way too much and even had 3 scoops of gelato afterwards (third one being hemi's). great day for pictures too with the family =].

and then 5pm service came... the talk was on Ecclesiastes, a book in the bible that aims to teach us that life is meaningless.. but there is hope.
this week we learnt about religion being meaningless... that everything we do at church, at uni, at work that we think is 'great' - it doesn't compare to standing in awe of God... in fact, unless we stand in awe of God and realise how small and insignificant we are, we will keep on living a lie - a foolish ambition throughout our lives.
the biggest hit though.. was ..

              Ecclesiastes 5:5 - "It is better not to make a vow than to make one and not fulfill it."

i remember making a vow... that i know i haven't been faithful with... i once made a vow - a covenant with my eyes, that i will not look at a woman lustfully.
the immense guilt and rebuke that i felt today was overwhelming...
i am so weak and i know it. but i'll give it another try, this time acknowledging my weakness without God's help. 


next up: dinner with some study camp leaders and a very close bunch of brothers + sisters in Christ.
even after a huge buffet... i still managed to fit in sushi + udon... it's ridiculous... but awesome time with them. we then went to yogurberry and chilled for a bit.. and made way to Clifftop - a secret little hideout that i frequent when i need to lay low and remember my place under the awesomeness of a powerful God. it is a hideout surrounded by rocks, waves and strong winds, but there is a spot where the wind is blocked and you have a humbling view of the waves crashing onto the rocks... it is a place where you feel safety amongst the crashing waves.

overall a great day... a humbling and eye opening day.

i thank God for my brothers and sisters and what they've done for me throughout my life.